bismillahirrahmanirrahim, assalamualaikum.
lamaaaanyaaaa x bukak blog ni. huhuhhh.
maklumlahhh life as a fast tracker really #@#%$
alhamdulillah, after 8 months in asasi, i've done it excellently *yeke? haha
and now i'm waiting for degree course.
insha Allah man jadda wa jadda ! siapa berusaha pasti dapat :DDD
i admit, i have ruin my entire life when i'm in asasi.
 i didn't pay all of my attention to study, keep on worrying of something that unsure.
hmmm. i felt belittled and so down to earth cause i'm drowing in a sea of thousand brilliant students from the best schools of Malaysia ! oh my Allah ! i shouldn't felt like that right? i should have motivate myself and won't let fear feed my self-esteem. THAT WHAT SHOULD I'VE DONE 8 MONTHS AGO ! :'(
it's okay, insha allah whatever course i'll get, i will make sure i get anugerah dekan for every semester. no one can belittle me, i am independent right?
:'( actually i'm kindda lost here, here in asasi. cause, i didn't found any friends that really i could call sahabah. there's a very massive different between friends and sahabah, u know right ? i miss my sahabah at serting. that always wake me up if i'm sleepy. always give me support whenever i'm down, accompany me when they feel it's not safe for me to go alone, eat together, go to surau for prayer together, making jokes, watching movie, exchange novels, riadah pisang goreng? hahahha.
huhhh, i'm not the real camilla in asasi. even asra can spot the difference. hmm
:''kita tengok awk mcm dh x banyak bergurau and lebih ayu" hahhaa, yg ayu tu x pe lahh :P yg x byk bergurau tu, yess, i admit, sorry friends :') i've changed a lot maybe.
 I HATE ASASI ! i hate asasi cause changed me from a very happy go lucky to a serious girl :'(
x pelahh. ade hikmah di sebalik semua ni :)
think positive ;) degree nanti i'll become the old me, insha Allah.

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